Waking up is a struggle.
Caring about anything except my son, is non existent.
Every breath hurts.
Every smile is forced.
It's so hard to put my feet on the floor and get up.
Knowing I will never hear your voice. Look you in the eye. Be amazed by your smile. Be held in your arms. Kissed on my forehead. Argue over the stupidest things. Eat your amazing cooking. Drink a glass of wine with you.
Nothing.
It's all over.
It's all a memory now.
Why do I have to go through this? Seriously. It isn't fair.
No.
It's real.
You're real.
Our love is real.
It will never end.
Never.
You made me who I am.
I can never let that go.
Death ended your life.
Not our relationship.
The Social Security paperwork says..."this marriage was ended by death on August 6, 2013."
Wrong.
My marriage did not end.
I am still and always will be your wife.
You were married to me all of your life.
And I will be married to you all of mine.
I love you more than my words could ever express. More than the Heavens could ever tell. Our love is eternal.
I just want to be able to breath again. I want to not always feel like I'm going to throw up. Like there's a knot in my throat. I don't want my chin to quiver when I'm trying not to cry. I'm going to break. I can't bend anymore. I have met the end of my strength. I want to give up.
Help me. Please. Help me hold my head above the water.
I love you, Scooby. & I miss you quite terribly.
Hi Jessica. I wanted to take a minute to introduce myself. My name is Holly Campbell. My husband was navy and passed away around the same time your husband did, on August 15th. I have a two year old son. I just wanted to tell you that I'm so sorry for your loss and I can relate to so much of what you've been going through. I found you in Instagram and I've been following you since. I live out in San Diego so I'm not that close to you, but if you ever wanted to exchange numbers, feel free to email me and I'll give it to you. Hollyrose7113@gmail.com.
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