4 months and I am already having regrets.
I feel like I have not given him all that I could. I have not given him my undivided attention.
I have gotten frustrated, angry, impatient, and cried.
I have had so much grief and depression take over me, that I feel like it has taken away from Brayden. He doesn't deserve that.
He shouldn't have to see me walk away because I'm frustrated.
He shouldn't have to see me cry all the time.
In short, I wish there was a do-over. I wish Ryan weren't gone. But I also wish that I weren't consumed with the amount of emotions that I am, so I would have given Brayden so much more in the last 4 months.
Why does this have to be my life?
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